My Heart Cry !!!!

Question  -- Who am I, In your Sight?
Answer ---  Just an Ordinary boy, who writes his heart and you happen to read it.

I am not worthy to carry on or be the part of this glorious ministry of Christ. I am thankful to God for giving me this privilege to serve as a faculty in "Himalayan Bible School". Whatever i am in front of people but i know deep down in my heart ... I am a bond slave of Christ. I can say this, because, i served him as a 15 years old young man, and now i am 30... but i am still perusing His path and plan for my life.. I am constantly trying to feel his heart beat. I am constantly praying God to give me His heat that i may fell his pain and joy together for His glory. I want to revel His heart and his love to people around me and on to these Mountains.

Once in two months... As i go to the mountains to share Gospel and to meet people along with my students. I hear many stories from people. I hear people been there on to these mountains from decades, but it is more interesting for me when i see Nepali group of people onto these mountains who are believer. They have there own great struggle but in-spite of their own problems, pain, sorrow, sickness, poverty and weakness they are striving to know, follow and love Christ. I always walk on to these mountains thinking and praying Lord help me to be a blessing to these people who are living their life in thick darkness and in oppression but it happens opposite, God blesses me and set me free from my wrong ideas and He revels me His mighty power, wonder, majesty and His unfailing love to me.

I meet people..... Who say please take my daughter and son because my wife has ran away with another man, I can not take care of them anymore now. I meet people, Please help our children for their education? I meet people, my son has to do operation please help me? I meet people, who ask ... please can you do something for us for medical help, if you will not help, we do not know what we will do? It breaks my heart ......... and i ask question to GOD, "WHYYYYY, DID YOU GIVE ME A BIG HEART, AND POVERTY" ..... I can not help these people. You have provided only $70 per month and more then $50 i give away and i myself struggle every month often. How can i send someone for nursing college, How can i buy a scooter for a man who has served you faithfully in a tiny kitchen who a lame, who's dream is to ride on his own scooter one day. How can i help my own mother who aspect some help sometimes from me? How can i empower these Nepali COOLIES, who carry heavy loads on to these MOUNTAINS? How How How, always takes away my sleep and hunger, I am restless to proclaim God's mighty work and power .... But the rod which God has placed in my hand has not yet becomes God's own. I pray, God take my life and make it yours and yours alone. Help me to bring hope to hopeless people on to these mountains. Let people use my life as a door-carpet to enter in to your Grace of Thorn, to be in your presence for eternity with you CHRIST.  

Question ----- Why do you think, you should stand along side with me in prayers and partnership?

Answer ------  His dream has become my dream as a 15 years young boy. I am a dead man for self but Christ is alive in me.

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